A little new life

Karena gaada yang tau kehidupan kita akan bagaimana nantinya. Jangankan setahun lagi, apa yang terjadi minggu depan, besok, bahkan detik setelah ini........ siapa yang tahu? Hanya Tuhan.

Gaada yang tahu bahwa kemarin, aku masih merindukannya. Gaada yang tahu bahwa sekarang, aku akan merindukanmu. Rindu yang berbeda. Yang kemarin, rindu karena cinta yang tak terbalas olehnya. Sekarang, rindu karena sedang melewati hari-hari dimana kamu sedang pergi dan kita tidak bisa bertemu.

Bukannya aku cepat berpaling, namun hati, siapa yang tau? Hanya Tuhan. Aku bukan orang yang mudah berpindah ke lain hati, namun tiba-tiba.... kamu datang dan mencuri hatiku. Semudah itu. 

Well, aku bukan orang yang jago bermain kata, apalagi kata-kata manis dan romantis. Baru memikirkannya saja, aku udah pengen ketawa ha ha ha. Jadi, maaf kalau aku cuma bisa begini. Segini segininya aja dalam mengungkapkan perasaanku.

Aku sayang sama kamu. Dan itu saja, cukup kan?

Hatred

You broke my heart, as if you could fix it.

Scorpion

• A Scorpio will find it the hardest to share his/her problems and sorrows with anyone.
• If you play the cold war with a Scorpio, they will play colder and win.
• A Scorpio can be secretive, they only share their deepest feelings & emotions with those they love & trust.
• Scorpio in combat they set the scene, they can be silent or sarcastic
• Scorpios are deeply impacted by the things going on around them even if they don’t show it
• Biggest Pet Peeve for a Scorpio: Superficial people,who lack any real passion and never get straight to the point during an argument.
• A Scorpio is probably the most talked about sign of the Zodiac. It’s also the most mysterious.
• One word to describe a Scorpio: Intense
• Remember Scorpios don't let everyone off the hook as easily as one might think.
• Scorpios are the type of people you either hate or love when you first meet them.
• Many Scorpios are good at things which require deep thought and understanding.
• A Scorpio can wreck havoc on their enemies. They can take you or leave you so don't even think about playing mind games

--
Cheers,
A Proud Scorpion

Last day of Ramadhan

Last day of Ramadhan PLUS Ama&Ima's Birthday! Gangerti lagi kenapa ulang tahun mereka berkah gitu pas sama hari terakhir puasa dan malam takbiran. Well, happy birthday sis! Semoga gak annoying lagi, xoxo

Nothing special in this suppose-to-be-special day. But what do you expect, huh?

I think I finally completely get over him, which is good (or not......). But after all, why do we have to waste our time thinking of someone who didn't think about us, rite?

Yeah right, whatever pek, up to you.

Anyway, happy Ied Mubarak! Minal aidin wal faidzin, mohon maaf lahir dan batin. I know I've been a pain in the ass for almost everyone (and well, I don't regret it :p), but still, I'm giving you all my biggest and deepest apologize. Thank your for being who you are, and being the best of it till now.

Oh iya, one more thing! I got a haircut, and weirdly, I'm happy for it. For me, this kind of haircut is superrrrr short. Just take a look ;)

Adios!

August 6th, 2012

Why do you have to be so irresistible? Is it possible to hate and love someone all at once at the same time? Yes it is, because that is what I feel to you. You know, it is highly irritating to have someone beside you but you also know that you wouldn't be with him, that you both are just impossible. This is just another teenage love stories I know, what I don't know is...... when will all this shit come to an end? I'm waiting for it nervously, seriously.... *deep breathe* (I take a lot of deep breathe lately......)

What else? You have a life beyond love, don't you? Ha-ha ofcourse.........

So, these weeks will be a supeeer busy week! I already met my mentees several days ago, and yes, it is exciting yet exhausting (okay, I experience a lot of contradicting feelings rite?)! Meeting the newies that totally didn't know a thing about campus life is amaziiiingggg, seeing them struggling and fighting in their own way is fun! (it doesn't sound evil, does it? :D)

What else?

I already done some break-fasting together (and also team buildings!!!). There are JGTC, FEUI Cup, and NFF that already passed. OH, and also my high-school break-fasting PLUS reunion! And some other small break-fasting with some friends. This is why I love Ramadhan soooo soooooo much, this month is a month full of reunion and togetherness. I almost didn't believe that it is already 17 days!! Time flies too fast, rite?

Well I think that's a wrap. Good morning guys, have a nice day! May all your businesses today run smoothly, cheers! 

First choice

Everybody needs to be someone's first choice. I tweeted this several days ago. And yes, it explains all my feeling rightly.

This is why I love my highschool friends so much cause every time they comeback from their far away college, I know that I will be the first person they want to meet up to. I know and feel that I'm their first choice, even though they never every said so (it would be very awkward actually, and I will laugh till die if they tell it :'D)

But on the other hand, I don't feel like I am a first choice for lets say Mr. X though he always told me so. Action speaks louder than words they said. And his act, even it is sweet sometimes, is not enough to prove what he said. And unfortunately, I am a nobody for him so I have no permission to ask him to do so. Is my explanation is hard to get? Ha-ha-ha I'm mumbling again..........

Well, see you later alligator ;)

Ramadhan :')

Welcome Ramadhan! Thank God, this year I could meet this holy month once more. Seperti biasa, mohon maaf lahir dan batin............... Kayaknya gue punya banyak salah sama banyak orang, bisanya cuma ngerepotin dan bikin kesel doang huhu maaf ya guys.... Makasih udah sabar nget sama gue, kalian emang sayang banget ya kan sama gue? :')

Well, setiap Ramadhan selalu punya cerita baru yang berbeda dan ngangenin dengan caranya masing-masing bagi gue....... For me, Ramadhan has its own scent (I know it is weird for a month to have a scent, but yeah, it is true ._.), and its scent is calm and homey. Its scent makes me feel guarded and save, and it is surely what Ramadhan is made for. No?

This year, unfortunately, Ramadhan feels empty...... Suasananya itu loh, gaada. Last year, in this month I'm having myself in the middle of newies acceptance sequence. And years before, as long as I remember, I always have someone I loved (and supposed to love me back) accompany me along the month. But this year, it is just as vacuous as possible..... Sedih sih, tapi yaudahlah......

Yet, I have to cheer up! It is Ramadhan anyway, and we should praise the month....... Yes? So, there will be a lot of break-fasting together with friends (like used to), and I'm totally waiting for it!!!! It is going to be superfun, it has to! I miss their crazy thoughts (and acts) (and I miss my college friends too, since we are having a three months holiday and I barely meet them...). So yes, every break-fasting surely be a nice one to remember.

So, adios amigos! Wish you all having a nice fasting month, and I hope the Mighty God will bless you (and me) a total bliss O:-)

#night

Well, just like what I've said before; I'm not sad at all, I'm just surprised. Yet, eventually another feeling comes to bother me, and unfortunately....... it is hate. I hate you bro, totally hate you<3

What else?

It's an hour to midnight, an hour to Monday (but what does Monday mean anyway, when you are in the middle of three months holiday *evil grin*).

I'm here, lying down, in a hurry to thank everyone, especially the Mighty God. It is not that I win some Academy Award or something, it is just life......... has been so good and so nice lately. I'm not going to be cocky and arrogant by that sentence, but what I said... it is true.

Having yourself surrounded by good people, that have a sincere willingness to help you, support you, back you up, is just a big blessing. Yes? And this is what I've got. I have a nice and humble Daddy that always try and try to protect his all daughters, with his very own way. And I too, have a nice and sensitive (in a good way) Mommy that always warn and advice her daughters, with again, her own way. And don't forget to mention all of my sisters that are pleasant, and........ everything, I just can't live without them :')

My life, is a great life (compare or not compare to others). I have a warm family, lovely friends, perfect college life (am only waiting for a perfect boyfriend, tho :'D)


What else should I ask for, when I got all of this with me? What I should do now is to praise the Lord (and this is surely the perfect time for this....) :-)

Surprise, Surprise

Surprisingly, I'm not sad....... It's just that I suddenly figure out who you are exactly, and what you are is not good. What could you expect from a really bad person? What excuse do I have to keep, hold and stand up for this kind of person?

I'm not sad, seriously. I'm just surprised that you are that cruel. Nobody is perfect, but you're obviously did not even try to be one :-)

Life That I Live Lately

Well, Hello World! :-)

After few days ago Nela told me that she read my blog, and she misses me, and she misses our never-sad-always-happy highschool life....... I decided to start post something again in my blog, in this blog. Why? Because...... It's really nice to have some sort of diary that in a few years after this day, I could read this blog and remember things that I've forgot. It will be really nice, clearly.... :-)

How's life now, actually?

Hmm..... Life is being great yet exhausting all at once, lately. College life is really getting me busy as busy as possible. I'm in my 3 months holiday now, (YESS! 3 MONTHS BABYYYYYYYYYY!) but still, have to go to Depok like almost everyday (if it's not everyday...). But surprisingly, I enjoy it. Really really enjoy it. It's always my happiness (or not) to keep myself busy with committees and organization and things like that. I always love joining things like these, despite all the exhausting-ness and tiring-ness thingy.

What things that keeping me busy rite now?

This is easy. I'm joining AIESEC UI now (as OGX GIP Team Member), which if you don't know, is an organization that focuses on student exchange and ofcourse, leadership (it's like every organization offering the same thing this days -_-). And for the committees I'm having The 35th Jazz Goes to Campus, 7th NFF (which the bidding is tonite!!! Sooo nervoussssss *inhale* *exhale*), Kontingen FEUI, OPK FEUI, 10th Economix, and HDCA Conference. I've had FEUI Cup 2013 bidding several days ago, but our team have a competitor and now all I can do is hope &pray that our team could win the bid *fingercrossed*. What else? Hmm I'm having Publication as aaaaaall of my division, except OPK (Mentor), Emix (Seminar), and HDCA (Liaison Officer). I just love publication job desc, and well, I think I perform well in this division....... And if you want to know (if not just close this tab ._.), HDCA Conference is paying me!!!!!! It's so much fun you know earning your own money, can't wait to get my first salary! Or wage. Or none of them -_- But whateverrrrrr I don't care HA HA HA

So, as you can see, there are really really really busy days waiting for me. But as long as I enjoy it (and I am), it's not a burden for me (not even close). Maybe my mommy is a little bit interrupt, since I didn't spend much time home while this is holiday. But well, she's my mom and she understands me deeply (and for that I thank God for having her as my mom ({})).

What about love life, missy?

Love life... Just like before......................... Always stinks! It's not my fault though, eh? I believe that love, will come in the right time and right place and with the right person. So instead of search and hunt (like many girls do), I prefer wait and see my own prince charming come to me <3

If I'm allowed to blurt something out a little, the guy that happens to be close to me lately is just not right. I hated him in many ways, in most of his ways actually ._. Hence, we are not fit for each other, but we just stay close though. Even if we fit each other, it is just can't be. It is not right. So, better chin up and move on hahahaha I'm busy enough to ignore love life <3

So that's all my update till now....... Too much, huh? Don't care :p

I'm finding my self miss this blog you know after written all of this (but this busy life didn't allow me to write one (but I will, since I'm the master of my life)).

So, goodbye and have a nice day till my next post mates! <3<3<3